sore saturday

today is simply going to be a day of hanging around the house and relaxing. i am extremely sore! and my poor body just aches. (it keeps saying, blair, what are you doing to me? haha!) i am in so much pain it's almost humorous. i mean. my hip kills, in a sharp and stabbing way. down the outside of my right thigh and lowerleg i have a shooting, burning pain. near my lower back on the right side i have an achy pain. my ankle is still swollen. my knee is bruised and scraped and cut. both of my legs are extremely sore from running yesterday, and playing tennis all this week. my shoulder is achy from serving. my right elbow hurts, i did a bad volley at the net yesterday, and just twisted it wrong. and i have a headache. i am quite pathetic today! haha. so today, i am laying on the couch. reading huckleberry finn. painting. watching a movie with my sister. and icing my poor body.

last night, i was listening to "i need you to love me" and "song for the broken" by the barlowgirls. i hadn't heard them before. but the lyrics seemed to hit home for me. i need you to love me is all about us just saying, god, have you not seen what i've done? why are you still here? i don't deserve you or anything i have, but i need you to love me. and that god has everything, and yet he still wants us. and that we need his love. and then song for the broken is about our western society, and how we are all so comfortable and secure, and that our prides are keeping us from showing that we are broken, bruised and poor. and how we are so slow in learning that strength only comes when we are on our knees, and yet we won't show when we are weak. and i will totally admit, that my pride is big. and i have a hard time, as they sing, about showing that i'm broken and bruised. but jesus has used all these medical experiences this year to help me break through that. and i'd like to think that i'm getting better at it. but only with jesus' help can we improve.

he'll never let you fall. he'll always catch you. thank you, jesus. i love you.