crutch-free dance!

yay! i made it through homecoming, crutch-free! homecoming was so much fun. it was crazy--it was highschool-like, but it was fun. we danced the night away--and my hip made sure i was aware that it didn't like 3.5 hours of dancing! but that didn't stop me! i danced with one of my best friends, D.D., who is absolutely hilarious, and the coolest guy you've ever met- and what is so amazing about D.D. is he has been in a wheelchair almost his entire life from spinal dystrophy, and yet, he's never bitter-he' s never envious, he's so supportive, he's like my brother. and he was a blast to dance with, we came up with all kind of cool dances for me last year when i was on crutches, and so this year, we made dances for him in his wheelchair. it was hilarious. and then i danced as d.d. calls "normally" with some other guys and friends! it was a blast. everybody looked so pretty-and it was fun!

then veritas on sunday! which was awesome. but i'll admit, i've been feeling a little weird these last weeks, with small signs of dizziness coming back, but i've been trying to ignore them. but during the first song of worship last night, i couldn't ignore the symptoms. my heart started pounding and i felt like i was going to pass out. so A.D.S. and i went out into the hall and got a drink of water, and then my heart felt weird, and we took my pulse, and let's just say... my heart was racing like crazy. i can't remember a time it was going this fast, and it was pounding. we prayed. and then i started getting really dizzy. so A.D.S. ran and got C.G., our youth group leader, and he had us move onto the couches in his office, and then M.M. (another amazing leader!) came back with a water bottle, and i started trembling. and then the throbbing headache and sweating began. and then we prayed-and things started to calm down. and then M.P. came back and prayed with us, and i was feeling up to returning to the group, and C.G. had an awesome message. and i was so thankful jesus fixed me up in time to hear it! it was kind of a tough thing for me though, just because, i had been in "the clear" for all this POTS stuff for about... 4 months, and then last night was a solid reminder that i'm not there yet. but we'll get through it.

jesus. i thank you for my health issues. lord, i know you've placed them in my life for a reason and for your glory. and lord, amidst my confusion, frustration, anxious thoughts, and total fear, i'm relying on you and your grace to get me through. jesus, i love you. you are my rock and strength and my king. you are incredible. and you are so beyond any little earthly medical problem-and i trust that. i trust you. and i love you. and i'm giving this all back to you, and thanking you for what you are doing in my life. i thank you for the people you have surrounded me with, like A.D.S., C.G., M.M., T.M., M.P., and i could go on and on, with M.G. and L.G. and R.S., and... so on. but i just thank you for you, and your glory, and your honor, and your love. you are so amazing. i love you. amen.