response

today, i feel a need to post a response to a comment that was left regarding my post from a few days ago. but i encourage you all to read it.

dear "anonymous",
thank you for your recent comment. your words were thoughtful and kind. but through them, i see a need for me to apologize. there has clearly been a miscommunicatino on my part. the reason why i write about my pain, is because jesus has given it to me, to glorify him. He would not place me in such pain, for no reason, other than to "bother" me. and so i feel a need for me to share my pain with others. as brothers and sisters in christ, we are called to rejoice together and be sorrowful together, to encourage, and to love upon one another. and in my own experience, the only way to uphold that calling is for us to be vulnerable and real with one another. i do not write and speak of my pain for sympathy, to comfort myself, to focus on the pain, or to feel miserable... i speak of it, because God has blessed me with it for a reason, and i desire to glorify him through it. i have seen jesus' hand at work in me and others through my sharing of my struggles. it is through sharing that i have become grateful for my pain. and it is through continually sharing my pain, that i have remained upon my feet this last year. if i held all my pain in, i would feel alone, and would lose sight of our purpose--glorifying God. this year of pain and struggle has been the best thing for me, and i feel a need to share it. so i thank you for your comments. i thank you for your time in reading my blog. and i thank you for your prayers. please know i prayerfully considered your advice and appreciate it, and yet am following a different path, because i feel i have been called to do so, by our king and lord.
my love and prayers,
god's clay